Personal Study

Next on my developmentplan is "Personal Study". Well, you have to get me right. It's not that I don't study at all, but I'm always busy to keep up with at least preparing the watchtower that I feel like I'm not doing enough. 


So, I decided to read 2 chapters a week in the Bible. But not just reading, digging into it, learning about it and find highlights, points I want to learn from or which are encouraging. 


So far so good. Since my course, I actually keep it up. So I read Prov. 22. - 24. and it is interessting what you can learn each time. Of course some of the verses I know. Some I don't even understand. So I try to do some research. This gives me the oppurtunity to meditate on what I learn. Which is the most important part for me. Because so many times you read something or you try to get your assignement done, that there is not enough time to meditate. Maybe you don't know this problem, but for me this is the reason, why I only read two chapters, no matter how long they are. My goal is to finnaly get through the whole Bible
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You may also wonder, why do I only read two chapters, and why not daily. 


First of all, I want to do it because of me, not for someone else, and I want to keep it up regularly. If I set the goal to read everyday, I know that soon enough there will be something in my way, I won't enjoy it as much as I want to and it becomes a chore. 


Secondly, the important part about this "Personal Study" is not the amount of what I read but the meditation. So I mainly want to read something and then take the time to think about it.


 It's not the quantity but the quality. I think that is something very important for me to learn, that it's not about the amount of time I study, but the quality of how I study. 


I would like to share now my personal highlights with you. 


Proverbs 22:1: It is important to have a good name especially with Jehovah rather than being rich and famous.


Proverbs 23:17,18: Eventohugh sometimes it is hard to live in this world, we should not envy the people in it, because only Jehovah can give us everlasting life. 

Developementplan Part 1

Ok, before I start this entry.. Congratulations Becky and John it's your 8th anniversary. I'm so happy to know you, and to know you belong to my family!


I promised to go through my goals for the next few months. Also to let you know how well I can achive them. I will introduce you to one of my goals in each of my entries.
The first one, is a nice "word-game in german" dosen't work to well in english, but nevertheless it is a goal of mine. 
GE(H)DANKENSPAZIERGANG - meaning something like go on a walk with your thoughts. 


My goal is to go on a 30minutes walk every week with Brent. You may wonder why that is a goal. Well, the walk itself is to get some exercise, but the that I will do it with Brent has mainly to do with the fact, that when you walk and talk (moving also your brain) gets you great ideas. 
It's important to share things in your life you want to change, or that are bothering you. Or things that you were thinking about for some time. 


Let your thoughts walk, let them free.. it's not about a serious problem-solving discussion.. but building on or at each others dreams. 
Where do I want to be in three years.... Let's dream together! 


If you ever want to go on a walk with me, just let me know.. I like this game. 


Next will be "PERSONAL STUDY". 

Lifebalance

This week I had the privilege to attend a course from work. It was all about lifebalance and how to handle stress. One of my biggest ressource of stress is myself. By now you know I'm a perfectionist, and try to do everywhere everything perfect. Also that I try to make sure everyone will get or do things "the right way". But as you can imagine, that doesn't turn out that well. 
So I learned that I have to be authentic. What does that mean? For me it means to be myself. To actually do things that I like but also if I do something I can afterwards look into the mirror and think that was they way I wanted to do things. 
So for me that means the following:
- Let go of people. Let them do it their way, trust that they can do things good.
- Have reasonable goals for myself. 
- Find reasons why I can do things not finding excuses not to do things.

I know that might sound now very theoretically but I have actually very specific plans. But I think each and every point in my acction plan deserves its own post. So let me ponder a little more about each point, and I will write a bit about them in the next few days. This will help me also to form them into something real, but also to have you as my readers to "pressure" me to actually keep up what I have in mind. 


So let's go on this adventure together.. and please if you have any ideas, suggestions to actually achive an even better lifebalance, do not hesitate to let me know!